This post is based on the podcast http://www.richroll.com/podcast/james-lawrence/
I’ve been listening to an interview with a guy, James Lawrence, who is going to attempt 50 Iron Man races in 50 days. Both he and his wife and five kids are totally into the project. While that sounds like an utterly extreme and crazy goal, I was struck by his humble and balanced nature.
I love that a good number of endurance athletes are incredibly humble. They view their goals, not as ‘hunt down/chase down/fight and succeed” type challenges, but instead as challenges that are more like the culmination of steps in a process of change and development. They believe that what they are doing may seem incredible, but truly, anyone could do the same, if the goal is pursued with patience and done one step at a time. For Lawrence, the drive is not to be “the best.” At his core, I believe, Lawrence’s drive is personal and motivated by something that is, in essence, very simple: curiosity. When asked (I’m paraphrasing here), “on a personal level, why are you doing this,” his response was to talk about his journey, beginning with the question, “why can’t I run 4 miles? I should be able to run 4 miles,” to now asking, “I want to find out where my breaking point is and, when I get there, ask myself, ‘okay, what are you going to do now?'”
Ting! Lawrence’s words struck a chord with me. His drive is not competition; his drive is based on a pure and natural curiosity about himself. His question is a good one. It represents a motivation I can understand. I am not competitive. I even feel uncomfortable saying what many runners say, that “I am really just competitive with myself.” That phrase does not exactly hit the mark for me. I don’t feel the fight to be #1; I don’t understand the fire or aggression some believe must be in a competitor’s heart; I don’t even understand, really, the idea of ‘pursuing’ a goal, as if it is to be hunted down. What I do understand is this curiosity. I do comprehend, down to my deepest inner self, the drive to explore the what are the limits to which I can go, and when I reach them, I want to ask the question, “what now?”
Inspired by the podcast, I put the same question out to the universe during my meditation today. I like this question. I like the purity of it, the simple truth of it. It’s my question, and it is the spark that will keep me moving, I believe, when I attempt to run 69 miles in June. When I hit a point that I feel I can go no further, I will ask myself, “is this my breaking point?” I know the answer will be “no.” I will keep running, and I will run until I reach the next point, when I will ask the question again.
This question will carry me through my race, and lead me to where I want to go.